This is from a Facebook post I wrote one month after loosing Melanie.
So I kinda wrestled with God last night. I told Him I did not like that he took Melanie from me and that I did not like that he didn’t give her a chance at transplant. I told him I didn’t understand why He did it this way. I cried and I told him I was mad at Him and I didn’t like the choice He made. Then I told Him that even though I didn’t like it I would trust Him. I would trust that His plan is better then mine. I went to sleep and woke up this morning with an unexpected peace. I still miss her terribly and I’m sure I always will but today it is a little easier